i cant sleep
i am missing you

i am a virus

you are my addiction

night is my time to fed

i hate this

i am disgusted

i really dont like this

so why am i staying like this

hmm

awaiting,,,

my rebirth

here is another night
yes
another long time that has been too short
too short for anything thats fun
yet too long for me to regrat
regrat for what had heppn for the past days
regrat for what i could have done but eventually ended not not doing so
sucks even more

in a state for regrating me for feeling regratting

you know

we can never be close to heaven
not when we are still alive

love
oh wells
here i am trying to figure out what is the "IT" element for love
furthermore
taking this question to another level
what is the "IT" element for that "L" thing to last

tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk ... ( and more tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk....)

for me
its memory of the rough times
the times that i was crying my eyeballs out
the times that everything seemed bad enough

the times that happened in the past
yes the things that could only happen when we were out of our fucking mind
or maybe
the mistake that was afterall meant to make

here i am again
trying to figure out a boy/ trying to figure out me
thinking about the past
looking at the present

perhaps a bit upsetting
perhaps even sad
some called it heartbreaking

love is more then a work of two
like an old cd from that year


dont you
go thinking
i never did
love you

dont you
go thinking
such a thing
such a thing



afterall
we still have our memory
and this old cd

sucide attempt
a choice

being normal
a choice

keep your mouth shut
a choice

admit that you are nothing but another slave of this man crafted soceity
truth

here comes another question
a question that nobody will ever get

you are on a quest

a journey to the unknown
walking toward tomorrowland
saying good-bye to what had been yesterday
leaving nothing behind but your tear
only to find that your are not here to seek an answer
but to ask